I have been working for a year now and to be honest, it still feels as new as it did September last year. Although realistically, I am becoming more involved and more independent now. I’ve had a couple of really stressful weeks at work with a pile of deadlines to chew through, but I think I like being that busy and productive. I like feeling like I’m really contributing to my company now. Since coming down to the lower dosage of my medication, combined with weeks of therapy, I feel more focused and less easily distracted. Of course I have my bad days, and a long list of ways my anxiety still frustrates me and hinders me, but otherwise it’s OK.
It’s been a trying month financially too. As I hit the 12 month mark of my tenancy in my flat, I had to renew my contract, and thankfully my rent didn’t increase. I have however had my insurance to renew, and internet/phone line rental to renew , and meanwhile I’ve failed my driving test yet again so I’ve had to book another theory test and have another few months of driving lessons to fork out for. I’m also going on holiday next month. Which is now looking not quite as feasible as it did before. Europe is expensive. I need new luggage. That is expensive. I need travel insurance. Another expense. It’s all piling up in an altogether uncomfortable way. I had to dip into my permanent/long term savings which felt very wrong. I’m already nervous for Christmas and all the associated expenses.
Adult life is pretty tiring and a little stressful right now.
In more positive news-
- I was worried about leaving my fish when I went away but I have arranged for various people to fish sit for me. :)
- My remaining fish are alive and well, and both tanks are still stable :)
- I recently finished up a big part of one of my projects at work, after months of work :)
- I’m still sticking with the happiness planner though I’m starting to find it hard to fill out every day… :/
- I’ve been sleeping much better since reducing my meds. And ok, I’ve also cut out coffee or coke during the week (only allowed on Friday or Saturday) and I’m being better about going to bed at the same , early time :)
- I’ve been doing yoga every week and it’s great :)
- I start Japanese classes again soon! A little nervous, a little excited :)
- Did I mention I’m going on holiday soon? ;)