For the first time last year (this year?) I went somewhere for new years.
I know right?
I went to my bests friends house for the evening. My best friend was there and 3 others. It was a small gathering but it was nicer for that. We played games- first a game of Articulate where I’m sure I got a little over-excited/loud and my team still lost miserably, then a game of pictionary that dragged on forever although my team did win despite my poor friend laughing in helpless despair at my strange drawings that didn’t seem at all related to the question (she didn’t understand my artistic vision :P). We talked a lot and ate lots of food (chocolate is food). I enjoyed hearing about their university experiences. Unlike me they are all having the full uni experience of living away from home. My one friend goes to university in London which is quite exicting; I’m making a mental note to visit her sometime! The train to London can be cheap but accommodation is always expensive- not anymore! XD Three out of four of my friends say they aren’t enjoying uni, and two of my friends say they are struggling to make friends. The latter scares me the most because I’m 10 times more awkward and anti-social than them, and I have weirder hobbies (they like popular TV and books. I like Japanese/Korean shit that no one has heard of). Conclusion: I am going to die when/if I leave home. D: I have no friends right now but its ok because I can just come home and retreat to my room, instead of being in a flat/hall of people I am awkward around.
As new years approached we got out glow sticks, party poppers and a bottle of bucks fizz. We gathered round the TV and watched the count down in London, then the fireworks. Soon after I left. I felt unwell the whole night, and moody so I felt a bit awkward but it was still somewhat fun. I wish I could’ve drunk (not because I’m some kind of crazed alcoholic but because it may have helped me loosen help…or turned me more moody. Either way I would have risked it for the chance to loosen up a little). Unfortunately I was on strong pain killers which meant I had to be very careful. And said painkillers despite being strong don’t work that well which meant I was in a lot of pain the whole evening. Feeling unwell was the only thing that I hated about last night and maybe my lack of brain to mouth filter. I’m still such an awkward person. I worry about what others think and whether they really want me there. I can’t help it, paranoid thoughts like that come as naturally as breathing. :( It was much nicer to be around my friends though than being surrounded by strangers at University. My friends by now have some understanding of how odd I am and if they are still putting up with me I must be doing something right.
Lastly me and my friends decided we’d write down three goals for 2011 to stash away until next new years, then see then if we’d kept them. There’s a lot that could go wrong with that but still, it was fun. I only have one real goal this year, so I made up two silly ones to make up the full number XD My goals were thus:
1. Get into first year engineering. The important and most obvious and the one I really need to focus on. My one friend is doing the course I want and she hates it so I am nervous about it but at the same time its something I want to do and I have come too far now to turn back. I’ve paid my dues and I’m hoping, a little desperately, that this will be my year to succeed. At the same time I know it rests a lot on myself and my attitude. I am constantly trying to find the motivation to get motivated (coffee man!) but that isn’t good enough. I need to do well in my foundation degree.
(She says whilst procrastination from her work…)
2. Read all of Haruki Murakami’s books. I love Haruki Murakami. Kafka on the Shore was amazing and I vowed to read the rest but alas I never got round to it. His books are much more expensive than the usual 90’s fantasy books I buy for 1p+150p shipping. The most I spend on books is 400p usually. Murakamis are about 500p or often more. Either way I must read them all!
(My pound sign on my keyboard is broken. Deal with me writing in pence!)
3. Get 3rd piercing. I have long decided I want 3 piercings. Why? No reason, I just like the number three. I finally got the second piercing in my ear this year but I want to get my nose pierced still. I’ve been putting it off though because I’m not sure how professional it is. Its all very well for university but how will it affect me when I want to get a job? I want to work in a professional environment and thus I will need to look it. A nose piercing is pricey, painful and takes a long time to heal (which means having to clean it everyday for months, not a job to take lightly) so I’m not just getting it only to let it heal in a few years. Which means I’m thinking of either a 3rd piercing in my ear or reevaluating my stance on body piercings. I’m not a fan of belly button piercings (and nipple piercings are just D:) but they are discreet. I now have all of this year to ponder it and then go for it!
These aren’t resolutions. The first one is a necessity and the other two are just silly. It will be amazing if we actually do have a similar gathering next year and remember about these (and find they haven’t been lost in Narnia or thrown away) and get to look back.
Happy new years everyone! : )