The Weekend

With school coming up for me it also meant my sister was going back to university on Monday (today technically). So on Saturday we went out to the cinema together to see Madagascar 2. Out of politeness I told her to take her boyfriend with if she wanted, and regretted it slightly when she accepted. I should stop trying to please everyone because I definitely felt like a third wheel at times on this particular outing -_- My confidence isn’t good, I struggle with such unfamiliar territory as this.

But anyway on Saturday morning I had to get up reasonably early (like, actually in the morning) then first went out grocery shopping with my dad before meeting up with my sister and walking over to her BF's place. We stayed there for a few minutes, and I definitely felt slightly awkward and out of place. I was told to sit and so I sat, but I sat stiffly and upright and fidgeted whilst carefully avoiding looking at any one place at any one point whilst still taking in my surroundings. I dreaded later when I would have to return here. My dear sister told me we were going to the Cinema together, and then on the day suddenly told me afterwards we would be returning to her boyfriends place to play scrabble together. Great. He's not bad, her boyfriend, but still I felt sometimes a bit out of place- I shouldn’t be there. They are a couple...and then there's me. And I don’t really know him, and around people I don’t really know I feel a bit edgy. As I said, I don’t have much confidence.

So after sitting awkwardly for a few minutes, that dragged on but were thankfully few in number, time was up and we walked to the cinema. I tried to talk to my sister, very aware of my sisters BF presence and that I may just sound like an idiot (I usually relax around people I know...perhaps too much). On arrival at the cinema we found it packed and Madagascar had limited seats available. Great, I thought. I might just end up watching fucking twilight. But no, thankfully we got tickets and we even had enough left over to buy a small thing of popcorn and a drink to share amongst ourselves. We walked into the cinema, late and had to push past an entire row of people- typical our seats were on that side. It was dark and I was secretly petrified of not being able to see where I was walking. But I survived. And we watched the film. It was pretty good, sometimes hilarious: sometimes so-so. It was surprisingly rude for a kid’s film, quite a few jokes inserted there for the parents and older viewers. I'm not entirely sure it was worth the ridiculous amount of money Cinema tickets cost but it was good, and fun to watch. Most importantly: it was better than Twilight.

After the cinema we did indeed go back to my sister’s boyfriends place even though I pleaded with her to go home. I trailed after them as they walked, staying quiet. We arrived and I stood there until my sister instructed me to take off my coat. I did as told. She told me to sit down. I did as told. She made garlic bread and pizzas which was rather nice because I was hungry. And we did indeed play scrabble. I was proud the last time we played scrabble together, because I beat them both. This time I was not so lucky and I lost quite miserably. : ( After some awkward time waiting for my sister to tell us we were going, involving me sitting awkwardly looking at the TV as if I was watching when actually I was just thinking, and trying not to look anywhere else. Trying not to look uncomfortable...and failing miserably. I wanted home. I wanted my chocolate.

Eventually I got home and the weekend became like any other weekend. It was not a bad trip, although at times I felt a little nervous/uncomfortable and a bit out of place. Would have preferred going home after the film…

Happy new year